I lost my little one. I'm not the only one, but I only know how I feel when I think of him. Instant pain in my chest. Heartache? Maybe. There's also a taste of despair and loss of hope. And still, he lies there, wrapped in my blanket. Zoro can wait and wait, but he won't see him anymore. I have no idea if he knows that.
When it rains, it pours. There's something weird going on with Aishila. I took her to the vet and that's how I got my battle wounds.
Too bad they didn't figure out where exactly the problem lies. Apparently she has a lipoma right beside her broken rib. That's not the main problem though. I started noticing she's losing a lot of hair. She's basically going bald on her lower tummy, inner part of her legs and tail. The damage is self inflicted, I believe. Caused by too much self grooming - the hair looks like it's shaven off really badly. The only question I have is - why? Why would she be over-grooming. They checked her for ringworms and it's not it. She got her pill against internal parasites, so that's not it either. Her skin is normal - no redness, no bumps, nothing. Maybe her skin itches and she's licking herself because of that - it could be allergy. I'm completely in the dark. I don't trust the vets as I used to. So, I'm asking all of you - cat owners - if you had any similar experiences, please let me know. Either here in the comments or contact me. I'll be forever grateful. BTW: Aishila is eating like usually and is very playful. She doesn't seem ill or anything.
My mother is diving into the computer/internet waters. She doesn't understand english, but if she'll ever check my blog, she'll understand/recognize these:
Sunset of the week:
I finally found a hair color that's just right for me. It's Schwarzkopf Country Colors in #80 - Arabia Schwarzbraun. This is not a permanent color and it's supposed to last for up to 8 weeks. I dye my hair every month anyway, so that's no problem for me. I recommend!
When all else fails, I turn to books. I've been living in the book fantasy world for the last couple of weeks. It's my favorite getaway. I'm completely in love with a character from a book I'm reading, but I'll let you know about that one some other time. Today I'm gonna tell you about The Hunger Games trilogy. I read the first two book in Slovene but the third one isn't translated yet, so I had to read it on my computer in English. I loved the first two books and the third one is my least favorite, but still good. Besides, it answers that main question - who is Katniss gonna pick? Gale or Peeta. =) I'm really looking forward to see the movie.
Got any more book recommendations for me?
Music of the week:
I need a Gale or Peeta in my life. Or at least something like Jack's singing about. I miss feeling love, I miss having someone who'd love me more than anything. Yes, that's why I read so much. My main emotion in the past few weeks - solitude.
Jack White - Love Interruption
I want love to roll me over slowly
stick a knife inside me, and twist it all around.
I want love to grab my fingers gently
slam them in a doorway put my face into the ground.
I want love to murder my own mother
and take her off to somewhere like hell or up above.
I want love to change my friends to enemies
change my friends to enemies and show me how it's all my fault.
I wont let love disrupt, corrupt or interrupt me
I want love to walk right up and bite me
grab a hold of me and fight me leave me dying on the ground.
And I want love to split my mouth wide open and
cover up my ears, and never let me hear a sound.
I want love to, forget that you offended me
or how you have defended me, when everybody tore me down.